I can breathe again.
That feels good.
Writing is like breathing for me and for a year I had suffocated. It wasn’t that I fell out of love with writing or decided to do something different. Due to personal reasons I was unable to take time to write.
Since I am an indie author I can take the time I need and come back to writing when I can. I never wanted to take the time off and I don’t suggest indie authors just stop writing unless there is a good reason for it. But, since I had no contract with a publisher and I am a relatively new indie author, I felt the time off was needed for various reasons. It is one of the things that makes me appreciate being an indie author.
I had always planned to come back, but when I did start writing, and eventually start publishing again, I wanted to come back strong. Feel confident in the work I produced and sold to the public.
That is when the little devil showed up. Right at the moment when I had planned everything out and had time set aside to write, the devil whispered in my ear. This is what it said, “Are you sure you can still write? Maybe it was a fluke. Maybe you can’t produce that series you have been telling everyone about.”
I began to doubt myself. Then I reread a book I wanted to republish (it is currently split in two – with a cliffhanger at the end of book 1, which I never wanted to do but the book ended up bigger than expected and I had a deadline, etc. So I made the decision to split it in two) and instead of just fixing a few scenes that I felt needed a little work, putting the two books together and then publishing it as a standalone, I let the devil whisper to me some more.
This time, I shut the devil down and decided to basically start from scratch. I replotted the book, added new chapters, new scenes, and some details that will come into play in later books in the series, and even designed a new book cover.
You know what? I haven’t heard from the devil again. I look at what I wrote and I LOVE it! Now I can’t wait to republish this again.
Not only that, but I sat and wrote whole chapters. No more doubting if this is a fluke, but knowing that writing is my breath. It helps me live.
I have already put a few books in the series One Wild Ride and The Attraction File up on Goodreads and iBooks for preorder. So, I set a deadline for these books and the one I want to republish. I think the devil is going to stay far away from me from now on.
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