BookBlogWriMo: Today’s challenge is about my review process. I have decided to change this completely. Meaning I will no longer do reviews. I had decided a few months ago to do them, but realized that my schedule makes it very hard. With my writing, looking after the kiddos and all the other stuff that make up my life, I can’t promise people I will do a review of their book by a certain time.
I will still write reviews of books, but just as an everyday reader, not blogger.
NaNoWriMo: Yesterday I had a minor meltdown. Nothing in regards to be overwhelmed (which I usually am), but when it comes to the quality of my work. Since I mentioned that I will be seeking out a literary agent, I have been questioning my ability to write ever since. I even PM’d Penny Reid in my crazy meltdown and she was soothing, like a soft pillow after a long day. With my new found focus and drive from our back and forth PMing I set about looking up agents and do very little writing: 168 words total. But, I did find some agents I will contact in the future. Then I made the mistake of looking at the books of their clients. Which just sent me back down the pit of despair.
Yesterday was an emotional roller coaster ride to say the least. Then, on top of it, my editor told me I need to rewrite the end of my novella. So, to recap: turning into mad woman who PM’s authors, trying to write book only to have novella suck me back in, and can’t sleep due to fear she is fooling herself. Oh, did I not mention how I was up half the night coughing (from sickness that won’t go away-over 2 weeks-I’m thinking I might have Ebola), at 1 am decided to take NyQuil and spend half of today in a NyQuil fog.
I apologize for the rant today, but this is what happens when I doubt myself, it ain’t pretty.